A Working Tittle

Hello, it me again. I have read many blogs in the past little while, and now I know what I am supposed to do. Can anyone tell me what that is?.... Okay. I shall tell you, write. Simple answer huh.

I suppose I shall tell you a little about myself. About 22 years and 2 months ago I was blessed to come to this Earth. I suppose God didn't think there was enough trial in the world. The gospel, the theater, wilderness, writing, the color orange, and people watching, are all things that I am mad about.

Its always fun to know that God loves me, I love a good story whenever I can get one, nature is proof that God loves us (most definetly when it rains), Never was blessed with the ability to either tell a story or write one (though I try it anyway), orange is bright and happy, and people are the most fascinating things that have ever walked the earth.

I love people. My shyness may keep me from getting to know many of them, but I love to watch them. Everyone of us comes from a different place. Our ways of reasoning will never be the same no matter how hard any of us try. My favorite thing to do is reading people. It has been something that I have always been able to do. Don't get me wrong, don't go around analyzing everyone I meet. I'm not creepy....but I do love to do it. I am not always correct in what I read, but most of the time I come very close. There are some that are harder to read than others, but again, I am normally close if not right.

And I think it is through this that I have my most annoying quality; I must try to fix everything.

This is something not matter how hard I try I always blundder up. There are very few complete success when I have tried to be said "helpful". Believe me, I have tried to help everyone wither or not they have needed it. I know, my heart is in the right place, but I just don't seem to hit the needle to the point. I just like to make people happy.

I love to be in crowds surrounded by people. However, I would rather be either listening or sitting in the back quietly watching. Don't get me wrong I do like very much to get in on the action. I can let loose just like everyone else. Its just that I like to watch more. I'm not saying don't come near me if you find me sitting of in the back, because some time I am just being stupidly shy and need some help. Because I am shy miss out on a lot, and most of the time I am just hiding.

And I think this is where my second most annoying quality comes from; I need people.

This has been something that I have just recently noticed. Where I like to be alone and set to do my own thing, sometimes I just need to be with people. Even if they don't even notice that I am there, I know they are there and that is all that matters. It is through this that I can sometimes get very clingy. I am deeply sorry to anyone that I have either offended or annoyed by this. I haven't many friends do to this, and most likely my other quality, but I think this is this one that rides on people's emotions most.

People need alone time, and where I don't need that as often, I sometimes don't remember that other people do. And I ask simply that you let me know when I am dong this. Be blunt if you have to. No matter how hard I try I can't seem to notice when I have become so annoying. I may seem a little hurt, but I assure you that I am not....really. Its not fun to find out that you are annoying, but it is worse not to be told and have someone hate you for it. And it boggles my mind because I didn't even know that I was getting clingy. So I may seem hurt but really I am just trying to figure out how I let that happen.

So now that I have chewed your ear off, or at least swollen your eyes with this long rant I thank you for even getting this far. I will talk to you later. Bye!